I haven't been shy about admitting that I reached my heaviest weight while going through the process of qualifying for surgery. What I never could have imagined was that my fat knows no boundaries. When I was pregnant and my ankels swelled up to the size of my knees, I thought it was some freak pregnancy-related mishap caused by all the hormones in my body. Turns out that I'm an idiot:
It's being fat that causes fat ankles.
On the end of my fat ankles are sausage-like feet. I had wide feet before the massive weight gain, but now I have something else entirely. I'm not even sure they make shoes for feet like mine, unless they are custom-made by short, festive little men in Italy (note to self: look into custom-made shoes). So, I'm in a bit of pickle when it comes to footwear. At my new job, all the women wear high-heels. The other female broker in the office only comes to work in heels higher than 3". I'm much more of a flats kind of gal, but I'm trying to embrace the power suit. No power suit is suitably impressive with a pair of sensible flats on a woman. It kind of looks like your legs got cut off at the shin, which is rather disturbing because I've never worn heels every day.
I have one pair of official, work-endorsed pair of black high heel shoes. They're size 9 and still don't fit. I can actually feel my toes going numb in them. Then the pain starts. By the end of the day, I'm hobbling along in my shiny black shoes. Sure, my feet might look respectable, but the nasty thoughts that I'm thinking in my head at these blasted pair of shoes are anything but.
Now I'm torn. I know that my feet will decrease in size (maybe) when I lose weight. I also know that I'm getting my surgery in a month and it's realistic to think that my feet won't immediately get smaller. I'm not even sure that I'll get immediately smaller, let alone the potential consequences to my feet. I just don't want to spend money on good shoes that won't fit me for very long. But then I remember that I can't even wear uncomfortable shoes for a full day, let alone an entire month.
I think I just talked myself into some quality shoe shopping time. I'm glad we had this talk.
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2 comments:
They aren't really 3" heals. It's a cheat. There are little platforms under the balls of my feat and my toes, so it really levels out to about 1.5-2 inches! I can't walk in real stilettos! I hope that explains a little. <3 Always, The Other Female Broker!
Also, don't wear heals and feel miserable! You need to feel good at work. Maybe we should go shopping (I'm not buying anything, but I'll go with you). Brucette's Shoes at Baybrook and the Galleria would be the place to go and they'll do a custom fitting. Maybe you just need a pair of good quality shoes that fit comfortably.
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